Noya Rao Teachings Part 2
- Angelica Gordon
- Sep 3, 2024
- 5 min read
"Layers"
Noya Rao took me deeply into the multidimensional layers of what has been my most difficult overall process and initiation in my medicine path and life in general--at first what I thought was just the brujeria I received early in my medicine work that became cancer. This is essentially a followup/part 4 of the writing I have called "Initiations and the Dark Side of Plant Medicine".
As I've written before, this overall process with brujeria has ultimately been my greatest medicine and teacher, along with a parallel process that was essentially a generational entity that has been present since birth, knowingly also affecting many members of my family and maternal lineage for a few generations. My next writing will describe the process of how I have finally found liberation from this through the assistance of Noya Rao, Ayahuasca, and Rose...but I felt to share a demonstration of how multi-layered such things can be.
I have held space in the last few years for many others impacted by varying degrees of brujeria and demonic entities (not always by choice) and have come to learn that these qualities of energy are brought into one's path as medicine and teaching, and serve to trigger a deeper underlying process. I have understood for many years now that these 2 energies of brujeria and my ancestral story were related.
In my first self led Dieta with Rose, about 6 years ago and at a time in my learning where I was probably not ready to hold such a space for myself, in the closing Ayahuasca Ceremony I was shown the origin of this entity was a pedophile ring a distant ancestor of mine was involved in where a "contract" of sorts was formed through ritual between this ancestor/our future lineage and some kind of demonic realm. This came in the form of very vivid/detailed and visceral visions accompanied by excruciating pain throughout my body that continued for several months post diet along with hundreds of waking visions and nightmares of experiencing what the children impacted by this ring experienced and felt. Simultaneously, some living members of my family in the present began experiencing intense psychic attacks and nightmares.
The brujeria I was unknowingly holding at the time also surfaced in the same ceremony in the familiar form of purging out the physical red clay that had become the telltale sign of its presence, and I began to understand that these 2 qualities of energy were nearly identical in their feeling and external manifestations. This was further clarified a few years later in my 5 month Dieta with Ayahuma and my maestro that healed the massive tumor that had formed on my ovary and cleared the brujeria part of this process from my body.
I felt this energy strongly triggered and surfacing a few days before I planned to open my Noya Rao dieta, and my initial reaction was intense fear and the feeling that I was in over my head and incapable of navigating. I ended up receiving an Ayahuasca ceremony at this time as well as one 8 days into my dieta after becoming rather psychologically and energetically overwhelmed from the first.
The facilitator is a Shipibo trained Western man who is known for his work in healing dark qualities of energy, and his approach was the same as all of the maestros and various healers I had sought help from for this process over the years--coming from the paradigm of dualistic shamanism, extraction, and energetic warfare/battle. It certainly did surface in those 2 ceremonies and painfully purged as it always does, only to come back a few days later as it always had. One of my initial prayers with Noya Rao was to be shown how to break the ties I hold to this very paradigm and I was told I needed to let go of the desire for help from someone else steeped in this paradigm and sit alone.
The medicine took me deeper into the layers in and after these 2 ceremonies, showing me that I was a reincarnation of my own ancestor that was involved in the pedophilia ritual and essentially created this entity and that I needed to accept and forgive this aspect of my soul's journey and experience as a step toward liberating it.
It then took me deeper into visions I can only interpret as another incarnation being involved in an Atlantean ritual that essentially opened a demonic portal that still plagues the Astral realms of our planet. The others with me in this vision, whom I didn't recognize began shape-shifting into the people I recognized from visions of others involved in the pedophilia, and shape shifted again into my present self and 12 others I have met over the years in this lifetime all impacted by this same quality of energy.
I asked to be taken deeper yet and she eventually took me into the cosmos to demonstrate duality at this level. That there are infinite universes containing forces of expansion and creation, the continual birthing of new solar systems existing simultaneously with massive black holes of contraction and destruction, telling me that the experience of duality is something inherent to our physical reality and not something we can really escape while in a human body.
She then took me to a source beyond these multiverses, I suppose what one would call "God" and as I experienced myself as this form of consciousness I realized that this form of energy that oversees the multiverse and its infinite demonstrations of duality is the creator and witness of it all. This God aspect does not look at the play of contraction and expansion, at all of its individuations and analyze, judge, or discern what is positive or negative. It simply witnesses everything as it is from a curious place, and there was a sense overwhelming love and compassion this God has for the way all of its individuations experience themselves, their stories, and their suffering. This is contrasted to the idea of God that I grew up with, that God is a being watching your every thought and action to judge whether you are worthy of an afterlife of paradise or damnation. This leads into my next sharing, which will explain how this experience started the process of liberating myself from this energy.
Photo: Noya Rao guided me to make several altars for different phases of this process and I feel ok to share them now that the energy of the processes has passed and I realized some of them are energetic transmissions in themselves. This was made to work on the ancestral energies and contains plant matter from all of the plants I have dieted (and my trusty shamanic companion resting on it)
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